Dance She Must, Over Field and Meadow, c1930. An illustration from The Red Shoes by Hans Christian Andersen. From Hans Andersens Fairy Tales by Hans Andersen. [Hodder and Stoughton Limited for Boots Pure Drug Co. Ltd, London, c1930] I was entirely captured by Madame Bovary when I first read it. I was a young newly married woman like Emma, but unlike her, I was (mostly) happy and satisfied. I also lived in 2004 when women had a lot more freedom, opportunity and personal agency. I had lots in common with my husband, unlike Emma who found her husband under-educated and boorish. Madam Bovary captivated me so much that I described it as my favourite novel for a decade. I felt that the cautionary message of discontent spiralling into infidelity, deceit, parental neglect and debt was one our culture needed, but what grasped me the most was Flaubert’s prose. His work avoids the cliched and flowery writing that was popular at the time he wrote and feels visceral and contemporary. H...
I wanted to take my kids to the movies today but my physical and cognitive fatigue took over. I had taken my florinef for increasing salt retention and to raise my blood pressure. I had taken my midodrine to increase vasoconstriction ( which prevents fainting and reduces my dizziness and seeing stars). I had taken my nasonex to stop my random allergic reactions to…well…. everything. I had taken a stimulant for cognitive fatigue, my second for the day. I had drunk about a litre of electrolytes to try and raise my blood pressure as well as heavily salting my lunch. My blood pressure was finally in the normal range but I still felt too sleepy. So I drank a coffee and still could have gone straight to sleep afterwards. My hands felt weak and my concentration was shot for anything serious like driving. I felt angry and defeated. Why can’t I just drive my kids to the movies like a normal mum? I have a condition called POTS*. It's an autonomic nervous system disorder which affects my he...